“I have the opportunity, once more to right some wrongs, to pray for peace, to plant some trees, and sing more joyful songs.” —William Arthur Ward
I know it has been a while since we last had one of those deep meaningful talks. So here I am. Perhaps still a long way from admitting I am a bit weary of sitting on the fence. Nor am I going to push the yearning for a security blanket to the forefront. I have no excuse to prompt this conversation so whatever it is or is not, I still hope You are as glad as me to have this parley.
It only looked like yesterday I was anticipating the dawn of 2013. I don’t know where the year has disappeared but 365 days has most swiftly passed me by. In the blink of an eye, another countdown and another extravagant display of fireworks has come by to ring in the New Year.
Before I start on my wish list for the upcoming year, I cannot wait to tell You how last year has been. It hasn’t been the slightest perfect, but even if my outlook and attitude has been found to be wanting in a lot of areas, I wouldn’t change an iota of any of the external influences or triggers.
The year is here to stay or so we think but just when we are lulled into this false sense of security, another countdown will begin. Like most people out there, I also seem to have very selective memory in remembering only the highlights and judge a year based on it. But in hindsight, it is often the dreary, monotonous, everyday grind of our days that contributes to the true flavour of the year. It is these forgotten moments also that moulds us and personifies us and perhaps what sets the tone for the next year.
Perhaps this year I am a rung higher on the maturity ladder; after all learning to live each year, which seems to be no more different than the previous year, with more stoicism and less gripe is what maturity is all about. Guess Einstein has a different term to it, but I prefer to go with my version and consider myself allegedly mature than insane.
I know that You are tempted to remind me that what one takes to the year is what one benefits from it. I admit that I did not take a lot of optimism to the last year but surprisingly the year has been kinder than I had anticipated in quelling my angsts and above all, very illuminating.
In this materialistic world, success is mostly defined by the assets we gain and surround ourselves with; so even if you have made leaps in your self-knowledge, pushed boundaries and ascertained your self-worth, ranked your integrity above your bank balance and are standing with your head held high, technically you still haven’t made it as there is no tangible worth of these moral assets.
Candidly speaking, a tiny part of me might still care about this niggling fact but the majority of me is in celebration and in awe of the possibilities of this self-awareness and in sheer respect and admiration for those who live by this code.
I wouldn’t attribute anything spiritual or other fancy sounding abstract metaphysical labels to the year’s journey but merely a humble and simple understanding that one’s life is defined by not what we possess but what we are.
Occasionally I am plagued by self-incriminating thoughts whether I have made the best of the opportunities and the year given; all I can say is I haven’t had much regrets so far. I do know that at times I am overwhelmed by life’s monotony and my perception needs frequent doses of rose-tinted glasses; however I wouldn’t trade my life for anything else.
Even though we don’t catch up that often, I am wholeheartedly grateful for everyone and everything in my life, including the ups and downs and for another year. As the light’s brilliance is only appreciated best in darkness, I know that it is only moments of strife and trouble that highlight the blessings in our life.
I do have a long wish list but if there is one thing that I cannot do without in the upcoming year, it would be to have this new-found appreciation for life and everything in it continue and thrive.
To the New Year!!
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